I seem stuck in my thoughts. I want to do some things. I want to stop doing other things. Mostly I am trying to find something to fill my time. I could probably be more helpful. Maybe even join some organization or group. I also think that maybe I need to disappear into a life of solitude. I don't need to physically remove myself from my current environment. It's more about an attitude and practice. Being solitary while also being in the world. Be helpful when the moment presents itself. Try to be kind when possible. But also be willing to offer sharp comments about the world. Be willing to express myself when presented with an opportunity. All with the expectation that nothing I do will that important. It's not for me to shape the future. It's not for me to demand how things should be. It's only my curiosity and kindness that could be meaningful.